Chapter 5

The super had left them to look the place over while he went to attend a few things, but Terry was sure he was calling Nick up to check on them. For some reason he seemed surprised when they showed up to look the place over. Terry had to admit though, the place was nice and clean plus the building looked good on the inside. It didn’t have a lot of fancy shit, but man Nick was right, the rooms were huge and he liked the idea of having lots of room to turn around in.

Ashley seemed thrilled by the place and yet seemed rather nervous. His offer to help out and move in was still unresolved. Firstly, he didn’t have a job, though Nick had offered him some temporary work in painting the old place up, and that would help buy groceries at least, but he was still unsure of how Terry was feeling about his offer. He didn’t know Terry, and yet somehow he felt like he couldn’t be with a better person.

Terry “So, what do you think Ashley? Think this is a nice place or should we look around elsewhere?”

Ashley “I like it, uh, it is big and all, and really bright, but uh, well, it is up to you, I don’t know much about this stuff”

Terry “Well, if you are going to live here you have to like it too, so how about it? Do we or don’t we tell Gill yes?”

Ashley “I like it, uh, you sure though, I mean, about me sharing the place with you? I know it was sudden, but, uh, well…”

Terry “Yeah, I don’t know why, but I kind of like the idea of living here with you, it feels right, I guess, so yeah, I am game if you are?”

Ashley wanted to lean into Terry’s arms but he was afraid to, for one thing, he didn’t want Gill to walk in on that, plus he really didn’t know if Terry liked all that kind of stuff. All he really knew was that he craved it, and the time he had been in Terry’s arms, it felt so safe, so right that it still made him hard and horny. He hoped they could settle this fast and maybe go back to the old apartment, because he was dying to find out if the other sex stuff was as awesome as getting sucked off had been earlier.

Terry could feel Ashley’s desire, the way he just looked at him with those eyes made his heart twist and turn in its own desire. He really was falling for Ashley, and while he was enjoying the sensation, he was also feeling the doubts and fears. They hadn’t really talked much about what Terry did for his money, and until now, well, he never really felt like he had to apologize or make excuses for it. Yet, there was this nagging doubt in the back of his mind that hinted at trouble down the road.

Gill “Well boys, what’s your decision?”

Ashley “I like it, how about it Terry?”

Terry “Well, it is spacious, uh, Nick said it was only a 1 bedroom that was available, this one has 2”

Gill “Yeah, well the other one is rather small, so the owner prefers to call this a 1 bedroom, the rent is $675, hot water and heat are included, cable and all that is your own responsibility, so, what’s it going to be?”

Terry “We’ll take it, uh Nick said he’d forward the rent…”

Gill “Yeah, I talked to him, he said if you Okayed it, he’d have the money over tomorrow morning, so if you want it, maybe you could just tell him when you go back?”

Terry “Okay, then I guess we’ll take it, when can we start to move in?”

Gill “Well, soon as I get the money, the place is yours, uh, it is the 20th now, so tell you what, we’ll make rent due on the 1st of each month but if you want to move starting tomorrow or before the 1st, go ahead, no extra charge”

Ashley “Really? That works out perfect, we don’t have to rush Terry, and it’ll give us a chance to get the other place all cleaned up before the 1st”

Terry “Sounds good to me, okay Gill, where do I sign?”

Gill “Right here, uh, Nick didn’t tell me much, how come you are moving? Sounds like you and he got along okay, so?”

Terry “Uh, well, we uh…”

Ashley “I came to live with Terry, and well, the other place is rather cramped, no big deal”

Gill “Uh huh, okay, well sign here and it’s all done once Nick sends me the money, by the way, first few months, cashier’s cheque, cash, or money order for rent, personal cheques after the 1st three months, okay?”

Terry “Yeah, no problem, uh, you give signed receipts for cash, right?”

Gill “yep”

Terry “Cool, okay thanks, uh we’ll be by tomorrow to get the keys then, might as well start moving in, appreciate that, thanks”

Gill “No sweat kid, Nick says you are okay, and I trust him, well, I’ll see you tomorrow then”

The two young men left, both of them feeling pleased and the walk back to the old place was filled by ideas on where stuff could go and how they would start to get stuffed moved over. Ashley didn’t have much and Terry had to admit that other than the bed, couch and some dishes, he really didn’t have much either. He felt a bit despondent at that realization but Ashley’s enthusiasm ended that mood quickly.

Ashley “You know, we could get some nice stuff, the place is so big, I never really knew apartments could be that huge”

Terry “yeah well its not normal, but it is nice, I just don’t know if I can manage that rent, I mean after utilities and all, it’s gotta be around $750 a month, that’s like, well over $250 more than I spend now”

Ashley “Yeah, but I’ll be paying half, so you’ll actually save money, that is, well, you still want me to share the place, right?”

Terry stopped to look at Ashley, wondering if maybe Ashley was already looking for a way out, but what he saw in Ashley’s blue eyes was concern that Terry didn’t want him. God, how did he get so lucky, to find someone who seemed to really care about him?

Terry “Course I want you to share the place with me”

Ashley “Good, I mean, well, you know it is because I like you, I mean, you don’t think I am just trying to fix myself up with a place to crash?”

Terry “I know Ash, you are a worrier aren’t you?”

Ashley “I guess, this is all new to me, I don’t want to look like a total dope, that’s all”

Terry “You aren’t, and besides, it is nice, I have been on my own for some time, so it just may take me a little to get used to this, that’s all, okay?”

Ashley “Okay, so, I guess I should think about getting a job, uh, you have any suggestions?”

Once again, he felt a sense of sadness. Here he was moving in to a new apartment that really was out of his reach, but it was the nicest home he had ever had in the last few years, and yet he still needed to have someone chip in so he could afford. That nagged at him but so did the fact that he really didn’t know what to suggest to Ashley, after all he didn’t even know what Ashley could do, and yet they had suddenly become roommates. Things were moving fast for him, something he didn’t really like in his home life, only when he was on the street. That thought brought a frown to his face, and he could see Ashley getting nervous.

Terry “I don’t know, we can discuss that later, right now, race you to the apartment, I kind of have something I want you to work on, if you know what I mean”

Ashley saw the frown change into a glint and the words made his heart soar a little as Terry started to jog ahead, looking back with a fresh smile on his face and all Ashley could think of was how hot Terry looked in tight jeans, and a t-shirt. The sudden lump in his own pants made him smile and he began to run after the tall young man that had captured his heart.

Ashley “you’re on”

They ran back to the old apartment and bounded up the stoop in order to get inside fast. Both of them were laughing and just plain happy as they rounded the corner to head towards their apartment door when they ran into one of the neighbours. Ashley didn’t know the person, but the sudden scowl that flashed across Terry’s face made him stop his laughter and he just stared at the rather sour looking person that stood glaring at them.

Terry just stopped dead in his tracks and Ashley right beside him. Ashley didn’t know what was happening but suddenly he found himself in Terry’s arms and a hard wet kiss was administered to his surprised mouth. He started to react and wrap his arms around the warm body when Terry broke the kiss off, just as the stranger voiced his anger.

Harrison “That is disgusting, thank God you are being kicked out of here”

Terry “Yes, thank God that he is getting us away from bigots like you”

Harrison “How dare you, you are the devil’s children”

Terry “No we aren’t, but I won’t stand here and debate it with the likes of you, come on Ash, we have some packing to do”

Before Ashley could say or do anything, he found himself being yanked by the hand and they headed towards their apartment door, the happy mood of a few moments earlier ruined by the encounter with the angry neighbour. Ashley could feel Terry’s anger and hatred as they closed their door on the sputtering denouncements coming from the sour 38-year-old man in the hallway.

Leaning against the back of the door, he could feel the anger still filling his body with its acrid taste. He hated people like that, who didn’t know him or even pretend to know him, but still they condemned him for his lifestyle. He didn’t ask to be this way, it was how he was made, it was a part of who he was and yet he seemed to always run into people like that, even when he took to the streets.

There were many times when he had turned a trick, when the guy would bitch about the fags or damn queers and yet would tell Terry how damn good he was at sucking him, god if they only knew it was a guy and not a girl, they’d shit their pants. Well not really, they’d most likely kick his ass, which had happened, but even at the bar, the way some of the guys would act about those who dressed up in women’s clothes. God, to hear them, you would think that Jesse Helms was a gay supporter.

Shit, all he had to do was think about Ned, the owner of the gay bar and his absolute hatred for drag queens. It was like they were poison to him and yet people like him, spent a lot of good money at his place but he wouldn’t let them in if they were in drag. It really sucked, to be gay was bad enough, to be a drag queen was like a double whammy. He just didn’t get it, at least you thought your own kind would support you but no, they were just as uptight as the straights. Fuck, life sucked at times and Terry could feel his mood darkening, as he tried to ease the anger inside of him.

Ashley could see the turmoil going on in Terry and he felt scared. He didn’t know what to do or how to act; the incident outside the apartment had frightened him, as it dredged up the scene he had with his own family. The way his stepbrother had gone around the house hollering ‘he’s a fucking fag, he’s a fucking fag’ and all his father had done, was tell his stepbrother to be quiet. His step mother had freaked, threatening divorce if his father didn’t do something, which meant get rid of him and now here, in his new life, he was once more being confronted by the same ignorance and it made him tremble.

Ashley “Who was that?”

Terry “The great Harrison Delbert, he’s a real prick, been on my back since he moved in here with his snooty bitch of a wife”

Ashley “What does he have against you? I mean, how come he hates you so much?”

Terry “I don’t know, he just doesn’t like fags, there are people like that Ash, lots of them it seems”

Ashley “yeah I guess, Terry, how, shit… never mind”

Terry “What? Got something on your mind, spill it”

Ashley “well, just, if he’s such an asshole, uh, why’d you kiss me like that in front of him?”

Terry “Haha, well I guess cause I had enough of his sour puss, I knew it would piss him off and besides, I liked the idea of kissing you in public, just wish it could be that way everywhere, instead of behind closed doors or in a gay bar”

Ashley could see the pain in Terry’s eyes as he spoke, and he felt his own doubts as they flooded into him. He too wondered why it was okay for some and not others, why a nation that spoke about equality and freedoms denied so much to its own citizens. He really wasn’t much for politics, but he did feel like there was something wrong about having to always hide his own desires. Terry had put it into words better than he could but somehow, he still felt like, well like he was doing something dirty and that just didn’t seem right. Why should he feel that way? Was it wrong to want to love someone, to care for someone simply because that ‘someone’ was another guy?

Terry could see the brows furrowing on Ashley’s face, which made him look different. He saw the way his eyes narrowed as whatever it was he was thinking about took hold of him. Standing, there looking at Ashley, Terry felt a strange glow inside, a strange feeling of desire that he hadn’t ever really felt before. Sure there had been guys he had wanted, even gone after, because of their hot looks, not all as hot as Ashley, but those times seemed different, more physical than anything, so what was it that was making him feel different for Ashley?

The minute he had laid eyes on him, he had felt different towards Ashley, and the way things had moved he hadn’t really had much of a chance to think about it. Here he was, not even 24 hours later since meeting and he had Ashley living with him and even helping to plan a joint life together. That wasn’t a bad thing, but he didn’t even know Ashley, or Ashley him and what his work? Would Ashley understand it, or would it freak him out?

As the thought of what Ashley might or might not do flashed across his mind, he felt his heart tug at him, as if it really mattered just what Ashley would think. That in itself was new to him, because for most of his life he had never given a damn to what others thought, but this was different and he felt a little panic at that. He just wasn’t sure how to deal with it all.

Terry couldn’t explain it, part of him was actually afraid of telling Ashley just what he did for a living, and yet another part of him was defiant, saying that a job is a job and it didn’t or shouldn’t matter what it was, as long as he kept it separate and was careful. The ache in his heart was growing and he felt unsure, something that he rarely ever felt. Terry had prided himself on being self confident and self-assured, yet around Ashley he felt like a gawky teenager, and it unnerved him.

Ashley “Something wrong?”

Terry “Uh? Oh, no, nothing, why?”

Ashley “You are looking at me funny, did I do something wrong?”

Ashley’s eyes were bulging out a little and he was shuffling his feet, not sure if he should look back at Terry or not. He felt a sort of hesitancy in Terry, as if he had something bothering him, and Ashley thought maybe he hadn’t done something right. Maybe he was being too pushy, or clinging to Terry too much, after all he didn’t have any money, or prospects even of a job, maybe he had pushed too hard, or assumed too much.

Terry “Wrong? Nope, just admiring how hot you look, I mean you are very attractive, and well… we didn’t really get too far this morning, and uh, well…”

Ashley “Really? I mean you think I am attractive? God, I… Terry, really?”

Terry laughed as he pushed off the door and walked over to the stuttering Ashley. He wrapped his arms around the tall young man and brought him close to his own body. He smelt the scent of his own body on Ashley’s, and it made him sigh with an unusual sense of desire. Somehow, the idea of being with Ashley, of actually not just being with Ashley, but of being the first to ever be with Ashley made him extremely excited. His whole body seemed to be quivering as he slowly bent his face to one side, to move in close and let his lips drink from Ashley’s virgin mouth.

The touch of Terry’s body next to his own trembling body was bad enough; the touch of his lips against Ashley’s was like a match to a barrel of butane fluid. He felt like he would explode in seconds as his own hands suddenly found life and reached around Terry’s full muscled body. Ashley could feel the muscles quivering to his touch which only excited him even more and he felt the raspy tip of Terry’s tongue poking at his lips, pushing them apart and knocking against his white teeth.

He gasped for air, which was all that Terry’s tongue needed to force its way into the soft wet mouth of Ashley. It pushed past the teeth and found Ashley’s own quivering tongue, and it licked at it roughly before moving to lick at the roof of the mouth and then the cheeks and as it did, Terry’s lips pressed harder and harder against Ashley’s mouth, as if trying to swallow it.

Once more, the strange feelings that he had felt earlier began to make themselves known again. His mind was suddenly reeling unsure of how to respond or how to order the body to act and yet somehow his body just seemed to know. Ashley started to pull Terry into his body, his mouth now fought back, pressing back with a strange new found fervour that made Terry moan a little with increased pleasure.

Terry’s hands began to roam across the back of Ashley, feeling the hot flesh sizzling beneath the thin shirt and then it moved down, to feel the tightly held cheeks of Ashley’s buttocks. The minute his hands reached down, Terry felt a hot flash of desire whip through his body and he was sure that he had almost lost it, only gaining control over his aching body at the last possible instance. He could feel the growing stain across his groin as his hard penis oozed copious amounts of pre cum.

Terry couldn’t believe how excited he was feeling, the way his legs started to twitch and his arms felt like they were on fire made him shiver a little. Nothing had prepared him for the sudden feelings that were roaring through his body as his heart raced faster and faster with each passing second. 

Ashley felt his body moving backwards a step or two as the sudden loud thundering noise of his heart filled his ears. He was momentarily scared by the onslaught of emotions that began to pour through his young body and yet all he could think about was how good it felt to be in Terry’s strong arms.

The taste of Ashley on his tongue was too much and he started to gasp for air as he found himself pushing, trying to guide Ashley’s willing body away from the door and towards the still unmade bed. His eyes opened briefly as he felt the hot press of Ashley’s lips against his own, and once more he gasped for air.

His hands felt unsure as they grasped hold of the strong back of Terry and yet as they felt the muscles shifting to their touch, Ashley was sure he could feel his heart starting to pound even harder. He groaned a little as he felt himself moving, but his mind was cloudy as it struggled with the strange new sensations that were pouring into his body.

Terry leaned back, taking his lips off the hot mouth and he opened his eyes wide to stare into Ashley’s warm soft face. He saw the desire mirrored in the deep blue eyes and he ran his hand along the cheek bone, feeling the soft warm flesh as he just stared into Ashley’s face, reveling in the desire and love that he was feeling.

Ashley felt the desire striking at him and he could feel his own body answering, the way his tongue licked at his lips, only an inch from Terry’s mouth now, the cool air only fanning the flames of his desire. 

His eyes opened slightly, to gaze into Terry’s face and he saw his own image reflected brightly in Terry’s eyes and it made his body shiver with excitement and pleasure. Nothing like this had ever happened to him, to be the object of someone’s real desire and it felt so good, that he could feel his groin growing hot and the desire of his own body rising with each flutter of his eyelashes.

Nothing else seemed to matter to him as he stared into the face, and yet his body was still slowly moving Ashley towards the bed, and the press of Ashley’s body next to his was making him weak at the knees, and the press of Ashley’s aroused groin was sending strange warm waves through his whole body.

The sensation of moving was unreal to his mind. It couldn’t grasp what was happening because people didn’t float on air, and yet that is exactly what his mind was feeling.

Ashley’s heart was pounding and his pulse was racing as he glided across the room and he knew, without looking, that he was headed to the bed, the one place his entire heart seemed intent on reaching.

“You are so beautiful”

He spoke softly and yet the words seemed insufficient to the way his body and his heart was feeling. He knew the words meant something to Ashley and that made him quicken his step, quicken his body’s gentle guiding of Ashley’s body, the desire starting to start several other emotional fires deep in his soul.

The roar in his ears was almost unbearable and yet deep inside of his body, he heard the softly spoken words of Terry and he felt the strange glow of burning fires ignite within, even though he couldn’t see Terry’s mouth move.

Every part of his body started to throb with a new feeling of desire, his passion for the young man holding him seemed to grow with each careful step backwards, and he began to pull as he moved back quicker, his desire becoming unbearable.

Looking into Ashley’s face he could feel the fear and panic rising up in his mind as he thought about how Ashley would take the news about his chosen line of work, but as the fears rose, the desire of his body seemed to rise up and cover the doubts, enclose the fears with its own power and needs, at least for the moment.

He breathed out slowly, his breath flowing gently across Ashley’s angelic face and he felt a sudden ease in his heart as he felt an answering breath from Ashley.

The warm breath of Terry seemed to fill his every nerve and fiber. He couldn’t believe how warm he felt, as he breathed in deeply, smelling that scent that was Terry and which only made the ache in his loins grow even more intense. The pain was becoming excruciating as he felt the edge of the bed rub up against the back of his legs.

Somehow, they had traversed the full apartment, and Ashley’s legs rested up against the side of the bed and Terry could feel the excitement rising deep inside of Ashley’s body. He could feel the strange thump that was Ashley’s heart as it tried to match the thundering beat of Terry’s.

His hands rested firmly on Ashley’s hips and he stepped back one-step, to gaze into those wonderful eyes once more, as if to find the answer to some unspoken question.

The pressure of the hard bed frame against his lower calf muscles made him start for a second. Panic reached out to try to grip his heart, as he felt unsure, afraid that he would not be equal to what Terry expected of him. He was becoming petrified of failing, of not being able to satisfy Terry and he looked up and into Terry’s eyes, his own eyes bulging in almost pure terror and as his eyes locked onto Terry’s, the warm piercing desire of Terry suddenly burst into his body, shattering his fears and doubts.

 

They both stared at each other; their hidden desires were suddenly racing towards each other, wrapping the two young bodies in their warmth and persistence. Terry could feel himself surrendering to the cries of his body and he could feel Ashley’s own body caving into the wild images of the two of them rolling on the bed, their arms entwined as they made love to each other.

The fleeting image of his nude body rolling on his bed with Ashley’s naked body was almost too much for him. He stood there, his entire body quivering in anticipated desire, and he could see Ashley’s body shaking as well, and he knew that at this moment in time they both desired each other equally, neither of them doubting the will of their flesh. Terry had never felt this way, felt this close to someone and some of his fears began to rise up and yet even as they did grow stronger, he could feel his body waiting to answer, anxious even to answer those doubts and he smiled.

Ashley watched the way Terry’s face was slowly changing before his eyes. He couldn’t believe how exciting it was making him feel as he saw the soft red lips slowly go together, and then begin to stretch outwards as his face started to crinkle up and a warm inviting smile began to take shape on the face before him. His body leapt at the change, the cock in his pants straining hard and a growing wetness began to spread across the jeans as his pre cum came flooding out again.

He felt like he was standing on a cloud, and the warm winds of the earth were swirling all around him and Ashley and yet, it was as if he could hear what Ashley was thinking, was feeling and Terry shivered a little.

His body ached as he stared at Ashley, hearing him begging Terry to take him, to fill him with his love and passion and he licked his lips; as he watched each word, each thought, fill his vision.

The ache in his body was too much and the uncertainly in his mind was suddenly being pushed aside as he saw his own hands reaching up, moving away from Terry’s waist.

Slowly he saw his hands reach for his own shirt, and in one slow firm motion, he felt the thin fabric cover his face, and yet he still could see Terry, and then as it lifted off his body, he felt it fall gently to the floor, his upper body exposed and waiting.

Terry’s hands moved down to his own waist, and he felt the cold glint of metal against his finger tips as he fumbled with the button, the growing image of Ashley’s naked chest starting to fill his sight and he sighed, feeling like he was being treated to a special vision, one that he would always revere and treasure, no matter how life played out for him and Ashley.

He shivered at the thought and yet at the same time he felt like he was being graced with something that he had never thought he could ever have, the total and devoted love of another human being. It scared him a little, as he felt the pop of his pants button and raspy sound of his zipper as it was pushed down.

A strange sense of pride welled up inside of him as he stood there, his chest heaving as he waited. His eyes were glued to Terry’s face and yet all he could see was a shadowy image, a golden ray was blinding his sight and yet deep inside the vision of Terry’s face began to take shape.

He felt awed as his body shook and his mind grew distant. Even the beat of his heart seemed stilled by the new sounds of joy that was filling him from deep within and he felt lost for a second as the harsh ring of metal echoed off in the distance.

The hot heavy hand of a strange new force suddenly gripped the trembling flesh of his body. He could feel it as it wrapped around him, holding him tight and yet all he could see was the bright golden light that was blinding him.

 

Terry’s pants lay around his ankles as he stepped forward, pushing one leg off and then the other, his hands resting on Ashley’s shoulder as they stared into each other’s souls. He could feel Ashley’s thoughts now, the fears and doubts he was having, and it stunned him because all he could hear was the anxious desire to please him, to satisfy him and nothing about being satisfied himself or having his own urges met and attended to. It was something he had never felt before, the total and complete pre occupation of someone wanting to attend to his, Terry, needs.

Even his own thoughts seemed centred on pleasing Ashley rather than obtaining pleasure for himself. It was a totally new sensation and it made his heart skip an extra beat, his chest heave just a little harder as he felt his breathing becoming more shallow as he felt the warm air pass across his naked body. Terry trembled a little as the realization dawned on him that he was definitely falling for Ashley, and that it didn’t matter that he knew really nothing about the tall gorgeous blond boy, all that mattered was that Ashley wanted him, and he wanted Ashley.

Ashley was frightened by the strange voices that seemed to suddenly be shouting deep within his own body. He knew he could hear his own desire screaming to reach out, to hold and touch the naked flesh that glimmered in his eyes and yet he also could hear the answering words, the cries of the other voice wanting him to touch him, urging him to touch him and it scared him, making him stand like a statute, and yet the wild beat of his heart threatened to shatter his solid body into a million shards and fragments.

Terry moved closer, his hands now gently running up and down the immobile body, the fingers lightly touching the hot golden flesh of Ashley and as they moved all along the trembling flesh, slowly the heat began to rise between them and for a second Terry thought he could see small wisps of steam pass between them but he knew it had to be an illusion. He was sure it was an illusion and yet as his hands moved over the simmering flesh, he could feel the sweat pouring from his own body, the heat making him feel a bit faint, and still he stood there, his hands gently brushing the soft milky flesh, gently feeling the raging rivers of blood that boiled underneath his touch.

His heart ached and the pain in his body grew intense as he felt Ashley’s hot breath across his face, the air not even cooling the steady stream of sweat that now poured down his cheeks and onto his chest. His shirt was drenched as he moved in closer, the hot fiery head of his penis now rested against the rough fabric of Ashley’s jeans and it made him quiver as the anticipation rose higher inside of him. His eyes were still locked onto Ashley’s and he could feel their souls singing together as they came closer.

Ashley’s navy blue eyes glittered as Terry’s own soft powder blue orbs held them, and as their bodies grew closer, Ashley’s eyes seemed to take on a new brilliance. His body was no longer like a stone statute, he began to quiver and shake as he fumbled to undo his pants button and get the restrictive clothing off his excited body. Looking down into Terry’s eyes, he could feel the wanton desire filling him, and he knew that he was embarking on the next stage of his journey to be himself, and the fear was still there but as long as he looked into Terry’s eyes, he knew he could contain the fears, hold back the doubts that were waiting to assail him.

Terry moved in closer, feeling Ashley’s hands resting near his own belly as his body closed the small space between them. He closed his eyes and yet he could still see Ashley’s face, still feel his eyes boring deep down into his soul as he brought his face close, his lips pursed, and with a trembling motion, he pressed his lips up against the warm milky skin of Ashley’s neck. He tasted the salty sweat that was dripping down from Ashley’s face and the taste and smell made him groan as his tongue flicked out, licking at the neck, caressing the hollow with its raspy edge. 

He placed his hands lightly around the shaking sides of Ashley’s naked torso. Holding the trembling body safely in his hands, he began to slowly lick at the sizzling flesh, tasting it and feeling every crevice, every inch of the milky virgin body. He kissed it in between and moved his head down, slowly covering Ashley’s body with his own face. His blond curly hair flowing across the soft flesh, leaving small strands of fine blond hair to mingle with Ashley’s own fine twists of hair.

With each lick of Terry’s tongue, Ashley felt like he would pass out from the roaring waves of pleasure that coursed thru his body. The touch of soft fine blond hairs brushing lightly over his heaving chest made him gasp for air several times as he tried to keep his mind fixed on pleasing Terry. Every new touch, each fresh kiss or lick made his body shake and shudder in increasing spasms of joy.

Terry’s mouth moved slowly down from the hollow of Ashley’s neck, his tongue being slowly dragged down as well, the rough side rubbing the soft flesh, making it tingle and shift. His mouth moved down towards the soft cleft of Ashley’s chest, his teeth nibbling now at the small clump of blond hairs that were there, the soft flesh growing pink and bright as the teeth bit lightly, sending more waves of pleasure deep into Ashley’s body, his legs now twitched and shook as the blood boiled and raced along the extended veins and arteries. Every nerve felt like it was on fire and yet deep inside, Ashley knew that it was only beginning, that before it was all over he would know what a raging inferno was like from the inside.

Ashley’s body was swaying and his hands were desperately trying to keep him still, his mouth pressing hard into the warm flesh, and yet Terry didn’t move faster, refused to rush his hands or face. He wanted to taste every square inch of the virgin flesh, to feel it shake and tremble to his touch, to the rough edge of his tongue as well as to the soft warmth of his lips. He could feel his heart pounding inside of his own chest, and he knew that his body was slowly draining itself of all fluids, the sweat no longer a river but raging down his body like a tidal wave cresting at 100 feet high.

The pain in his legs was growing, and he slowly felt his body sinking down as his knees seemed to buckle. In fact, he had slowly sunk to his knees, to rest them on the floor and he found his face resting below the hot chest and his tongue was licking at the hard rippling muscles under the stomach. He could feel them rippling as he licked and began to move back up the torso, to kiss the deep hollow of Ashley’s chest. His eyes were open and he could see the two thin nubs of Ashley’s nipples, the way they jutted out, tiny drops of sweat curled around one and on the other he saw the tiny bead of sweat rolling towards the tip. His mouth moved upwards and his tongue flicked out, the hot tip touching the flattened tip of the nipple.

A tremendous jolt seemed to rush through his body as he touched the tip of one nipple. The body being held in his hands suddenly swayed backwards, the weight almost breaking his hold but his fingers dug into the hot steamy flesh and he held him upright as his mouth closed around the trembling nipple. His teeth bit lightly, feeling the hard flesh between them and he moved to one side, then back again, holding the throbbing flesh in his teeth. Ashley cried out in joy as Terry’s mouth crushed inwards, pushing the hard nipple back and then he released it from between his teeth and now his tongue licked it, circled the taut rod and began to lick eagerly at the flesh, tasting the beads of sweat as they poured past, to run unheeded down the body, past the rippling muscles of Ashley’s stomach, beyond the soft belly, to disappear under the sweat soaked waist band of Ashley’s pants.

His own sweat mingled with the raging river of water that was flowing down Ashley’s body and he could taste it among Ashley’s own flavour. His body ached in a whole new way, his legs no longer had feeling and his knees felt like stone pads as he swayed, his own body feeling faint, and yet he hung on. His face moved slowly and reluctantly from the one nipple, a last fling of his tongue catching the nipple one more time, and just as before, sending a torrent of joy flooding into both bodies. The stream of pre cum oozing from his cock now dripped onto his thigh and he felt the stinging heat as his lips pressed against Ashley’s flesh, moving slightly over, slowly coming closer to the other nipple, to the other pec that was shuddering in anticipation.

The fire in his belly was growing hotter with each touch of Terry’s mouth on his body, his stomach ached now and the fire was threatening to burst outwards, as his heart struggled to keep some beat going. The pain in his chest became tight and his breathing was shallow as Terry’s lips brushed past his other nipple, and he swooned, his hands moved up and rested hard on Terry’s shoulder. His elbows were bent as he dug his fingers into Terry’s shoulder, the flesh shifting until Ashley’s fingers were touching bone.

While the fires in his belly grew hotter, Ashley could feel his groin stretching and aching. The pain was overtaking the throbbing ache in his chest and he shifted his position, his feet no longer having any feeling. The blood in his legs was long since diminished as most of his blood was rushing towards the burning blaze that filled his groin. His cock felt like it was a 7 ¾ inch long flame, the heat was so intense and his mind no longer could distinguish between the ache in his groin and the pain in his chest or the throb of his heart. All he could manage was to groan loudly, his fingers digging hard into the solid bones of Terry’s shoulder as Terry’s mouth closed around his nipple.

The small bite made both bodies shake and tremble with pleasure. Terry’s whole body was convulsed into a tremor that made Ashley step back into the bed’s frame. His leg banged hard into the cold metal and yet he felt nothing but the pure pleasure that was continuing to roar through his entire body. His spine tingled as Terry’s lips pressed tightly around the throbbing piece of flesh and then suddenly just let go. The sudden release made him gasp as he felt the cooling breeze rush past.

Terry leaned back onto his legs, the pain awakening the nerves that had fallen silent and he felt the ache roar upwards and still his hands held firmly onto Ashley’s shaking body. He could feel the desire inside of Ashley, he could almost taste it and yet he held back, his eyes shooting sparks of lust and desire towards Ashley’s trembling body. He felt his heart slowing, gearing down for a minutes reprieve and he found himself staring at Ashley’s glittering body. The raging flood of sweat had made the soft milky flesh shine and the tiny strands of blond hair sparkled like a million tiny stars, twinkling at him and the joy only grew inside of Terry as he just stared at the beauty of Ashley’s naked torso.

Gradually the tremors grew silent as Ashley found his breath. The pain in his chest had subsided for the moment and he was finally able to gaze down at the top of Terry’s head. He saw the thin strands of once curly hair, now matted by the sweat, lying across the clothed shoulders, where his own hands now rested lightly. His breathing once more in control, he felt the desire for Terry waiting, as if it was just collecting itself for a fresh assault on his senses. 

Terry’s eyes slowly moved down from the shining sheen of Ashley’s skin towards the dark coloured pants. The faded blue jeans were now dark from the sweat that had poured from both young men. He could see they were soaked through and through and he smiled, knowing that his shirt was looking as wet. He could feel the soft material etched into his torso, and he looked up into Ashley’s eyes, a warm smile growing across his face.

Ashley bent down a little, his hands moving from Terry’s shoulder to reach down and grab at the soaked shirttail. The fingers closed around the damp hem of the shirt and peeled it upwards, Terry’s hands letting go from their purchase on Ashley’s hips, and the wet shirt slowly lifted off the soaked steaming body. As the shirt came free, Ashley held the shirt in his one hand, his other back to resting on Terry’s shoulder.

He looked down at Terry, and with his eyes locked onto Terry’s, he brought the wet shirt to his face and he breathed in deeply, as if to drink in Terry’s scent. Ashley’s chest heaved as he breathed in again and then he let the shirt drop from his hand to brush past both shaking bodies. Terry stared into the eyes and he could feel the pleasure that his own scent was arousing inside of Ashley’s body. He found himself shaking with excitement as he felt Ashley calling to him, softly urging him to make Ashley his.

A drop of his own pre cum fell from the tip of his cock to fall to his thigh. The burning heat startled him and he shook his head, his eyes now reaching deep into Ashley’s body while his hands moved back from their resting place, to once more hold Ashley’s thin body. His fingers now moved along the soaked waistband of the jeans until they came to the opened pants. He could feel the belly as it was sucked in, and he could feel the muscles of Ashley’s stomach ripple and grow tense in anticipation.

With a deep breath, his eyes fixed onto Ashley’s face, he wrapped his fingers around the jeans, and then, his mouth open, his eyes glazed, he pulled on the wet fabric, the pants slowly moving downwards, Ashley’s trembling legs becoming visible as the fingers and hands kept pulling, slowly but steadily pulling until finally the pants rested around the thin ankles. Terry moved his eyes away from Ashley’s navy blue eyes, and with a small flutter in his chest, he started to let his gaze go down from the heaving chest, towards the shaking stomach and twisting belly.

His eyes stopped as they saw the dark patch of wet pubic hair come into view, and he licked his lips as he finally found the strength to continue. His gaze now moved even slower as he took in every pubic hair, strand by strand until he saw the pink glow of flesh come into sight. His lips were tightly closed now, his teeth grinding as he lowered his gaze and stared at the hard solid pole of flesh, the head bright red with a steady ooze of white coming from the centre. 

Terry’s hands moved slowly down the trembling body, each hand careful to lightly hold the shaking body and as they moved down, he could feel the excitement rising in Ashley’s hot body. His eyes were glued to the swaying organ, the way it moved to each tremor that was racing thru Ashley’s body only made his own heart beat faster, made his own hard cock sway and move, pre cum dripping from its own blood gorged head.

The thrill of watching the cock and the steady drop of white creamy pre cum was making him ache all over. His nerves jangled in anticipation and yet he knew deep down in his heart that there was more treasure to be uncovered and he felt overwhelmed. The joy that was filling him was intense, the pain excruciatingly enjoyable as his body reacted to each touch of his fingers along the narrow muscular thighs of Ashley.

The shaking muscles were tightening as his hands moved lightly downwards until they were level with the hard jerking cock. His eyes fluttered and his heart skipped several beats as he breathed in deeply. Ashley’s man scent filled his nostril with its pungent odour and he swooned a little, swaying back onto his heels, his knees almost raised from the soft carpeted floor. Terry blinked and collected his racing emotions and in a slow motion, he moved forward once more. His lips licked constantly by his tongue, his eyes growing wider as he came closer to the dripping penis, his heart almost ready to explode as he closed his mouth, his lips pursed as his face came closer. The heat was intense and the desire almost too much as Terry lightly pressed his lips against the burning cock head.

His body almost burst into flames, the touch was almost too much and yet the warm wet taste of salt filled his mouth as his tongue flicked out only once. The pre cum was eagerly gathered and swirled around inside of his mouth, his hands dug into the hot flesh of Ashley’s calves, striking the bone and holding the shaking body in a tight grip.

Ashley swayed and leaned backwards as he felt the sudden press of lips against his throbbing cock. His body shuddered once, then again, and he cried out softly, his voice lost in the roar of his heart as it went speeding forwards, trying to break free of its mortal bounds. The lungs were gasping for air as he felt the raspy tongue flick and take his early seed, swallowing it after being swirled around inside of Terry’s mouth. His arms shook and he reached down to try desperately to steady himself, to prevent himself from falling backwards. Ashley’s fingers dug hard into Terry’s shoulders, the fingertips etched deep into the soft flesh and yet the pain never registered in Terry’s body or in Ashley’s.

Terry couldn’t believe the joy that was flooding into his body by the simple taste of Ashley’s early seed. He was amazed at how much it made his body ache and yet he could still feel some doubts echoing inside of his mind, some small shred of concern as his hands held tightly onto the shaking thighs, feeling the muscles quivering to his firm touch, the way they moved and shivered under his fingers and yet still the voices were not stilled. Still the demons of a life spent on the streets echoed deep within him

How can he love me? He doesn’t know me, I am a slut, a whore and he is going to accept that? How?

Ashley felt his body heaving; the pain in his groin was only growing harder and more intense as he felt himself slowing losing control once more. Nothing he had ever imagined was close to the emotions he was feeling this second, this instant in time and he shook hard, almost as if he was having a seizure of some sort. Nothing had prepared him for this and as his hands dug in harder, desperate to hold on, frantic to keep from making a mistake, his heart grew louder, his mind slowly unable to penetrate the raging passions that were being unleashed deep within Ashley.

I can’t lose it, I can’t ruin this, I have to keep it together, he’ll hate me if I cum now, oh god please let me keep holding on, please, oh shit this is too much, I want to cum, please, help, oh god, I need to hold on, I need to feel him, please terry, don’t, I can’t fail now, not now, oh …

It was like he was inside of Ashley’s mind. He could hear the desperate pleas, the agony of Ashley’s mind as it struggled to please him, not to seek pleasure for himself, but to please him and he felt a deep sense of guilt, knowing deep down that once Ashley knew his secret, he would run, but he couldn’t stop. His own dark thoughts were bubbling and his heart was roaring in a valiant effort to hide them from Ashley’s own piercing soul.

The sounds of Ashley’s pleas found its mark and instead of moving forward, he ran his hands lightly down the shaking legs, his eyes staring at the still oozing cock, his own desire to taste and hold that throbbing organ deep in his mouth set aside, as his heart ached to please the cries of Ashley’s inner voices.

Terry looked up, his eyes reluctantly leaving the hard throbbing image of Ashley’s oozing penis and he stared into the constricted face, saw the total desire and rising passions and he knew this was his chance, maybe his only chance and he carefully stood up, the pain in his legs growing as blood returned to them.

I can’t ruin this, I need to reach him, to give him this at least, it is my chance, my only chance to have a piece of what everyone else wants, I can’t let him down, he expects so much, so what if he won’t understand later, at least he’ll have this.

Oh, God he is so wonderful, how can he be for me? How can he care so much and want to give me so much?

I can hear him, this is not happening, but it is, how can I hear him, yes, I know, I have to do this, I can’t let him down, oh Shit, Ashley, oh man I have to hold on, even for a few more minutes, I can’t let him down, not yet, not now.

He felt Terry’s hands moving upwards and the glazed look in his eyes cleared a little as he looked down into the dark abyss of Terry’s eyes. He could see a growing fire starting to burn within and his heart trembled at the sight. His own body shook more as he watched the young man rising up, his body perfect in every way he had ever imagined. There was nothing out of place, the soft milky flesh glistened from the sweat and it made the golden tan shine even more.

He breathed in deeply, feeling the firm press of Terry’s body now against his own and this time when he opened his eyes, he saw the warm smile that had first stolen his heart the other night in the bar. It was there again and he felt just as he felt then and he swayed in Terry’s arms. His whole body near the point of collapse and he felt himself slowly sinking backwards, gently guided by Terry’s strong arms.

Is this heaven? Is this how it feels to be loved, to be wanted?

That look, oh God he has that look again, I can’t stand this, oh God, please let him like me, let him see that I really do like him, that I really do want to be his, no one else’s, please, oh please let him see that

Carefully, with a tenderness and slowness he didn’t think he could control for long, he felt Ashley’s body grow limp in his arms and then somehow, he found himself leaning over Ashley, gently letting him fall backwards, so that his tall full frame could rest on the waiting bed.

He could barely see, as sweat poured from his forehead and his hands were now fully extended as Ashley lay on the bed, his chest heaving, the sweat glistening in the afternoon’s light that bathed the room in its golden sheen. His heart was pounding and he thought that it would explode, the pain in his groin felt like an inferno and yet he just stood there, his own legs rubbing up against the bed, Ashley’s legs on either side of him and still his body stood.

I don’t know him, and yet it too much, he is inside of my head and he can’t be, I don’t know him; this isn’t how it is supposed to be, how can it be?

He loves me, but how? How can he? I am a slut, he doesn’t know that, how can he care so much, how can he want me so badly that it making him ache?

He felt the firmness of the mattress against his back, and he breathed in deeply, as he stared up at Terry. The feeling of anticipation was growing and his own fears were rising with each passing second that Terry stood looking down at him. He felt nervous and yet the fire in his belly seemed ready to burst out. A small moan came from his lips and he found his tongue slowly licking at the parched red lips, the tip barely showing and he could see Terry’s face now, the way it shone down at him, a wild look of lust in his eyes that made Ashley’s body shiver.

They just stared at each other, as if unsure what to do next and then for some unknown reason he felt his eyes leaving Terry’s face, small tears rolling up at the corners of his navy blue eyes and then he felt his face turning, the cheeks flushed as he directed his gaze towards the far night table.

He is so beautiful, how can he want me? I am just a hick, he is so gorgeous, how did I get so lucky?

He is hot, look at him, he has the perfect body and he’s looking at me, he’s really looking at me, oh God, he’s going to touch me again, oh no, I can’t stand it, I want him but how, how do I tell him, I need to please him, oh God, please, please, let me please him, let me satisfy him, please God!

The pull of Ashley’s eyes was tearing his heart apart. He wanted to reach down, to lay on top of the shaking body and cover it with his own steaming flesh but he held back, unsure of what to do and then he felt his eyes, they were slowly being dragged away from gazing at the milky white flesh beneath him and he felt his face shift its gaze, no longer staring at the hot throbbing organ that stuck straight up in the air, a watery grey milk slowly dripping from its top, coating the long shivering shaft with its stickiness.

The command was intense and he trembled as he broke contact with the amazing vision of Ashley’s naked body and he felt his face moving away, his own cheeks now red from exertion, sweat dripping down from his forehead, his eyelids, his nose and all of it running unheeded down his face as he turned, now taking in the far night table and as his eyes recognized the table, his heart began to tremble, it shook and shuddered with an intense power that threatened to send it into orbit.

He is so damn hot, how can I refuse him? I need him, I know I shouldn’t but I do, and yet, I can’t, no I can’t, I’ll only hurt him but he wants it so bad, he is so cute, look at him, the way he is waiting, the way he is begging me, I can’t, but I have to, I have to make him happy, at least he’ll have this time, maybe he won’t hate me after, maybe he’ll still want me as a friend?

Despite the torrent of sweat that dripped down over his eyes, he was able to focus on the shimmering black package that rested on the night table. His heart quickened its beat as it recognized the package and his whole body started to quiver and shake uncontrollably as his hand reached out, no longer hesitant as it took the package and then his eyes once more returned to Ashley’s naked body.

He could see the eyes following his hands, unwilling to gaze into his own eyes and yet he knew, he could feel it as his hands reached inside and he pulled out the thin plastic package. Terry could see the body shake as the package came into view and it was almost as if he could feel exactly what Ashley was feeling, and he felt fear for a second, unsure but the heat of his desire suffocated the nagging doubts and he ripped open the plastic package to pull out the thin plastic condom.

The condoms, I need to be safe, I can’t risk hurting him, the condoms but can I hold on?

Yes, I have to, he deserves that, he is so hot, look at him, the way he trusts me, oh God, why does it have to be this way? Why can’t I just hold him, no, I need to have this too, but I can’t.

The pain, I can see him hurting, the way he is moving, oh God he really wants me, why? I am not, I can’t fail him, I need to do this, for him, at least maybe he’ll understand later.

Ashley licked his lips as he saw Terry slowly remove the thin condom. He had never really seen one opened, and he marveled at it, wondering what it was going to feel like. His body began to tremble and clouds of doubts seemed to suddenly cover his eyes, and he tried to clear them, to focus on the thin plastic between Terry’s fingers but he couldn’t and he found his face once more staring up at the ceiling, Terry’s head just in view and his heart began to beat louder once more. The roar deafening to his ears and silencing the doubts that were racing through his mind.

Panic was slowly taking hold and he gasped for air as he saw Terry’s hand move over him, the thin plastic in between his fingers and his eyes suddenly bulged open wide